…but you actually have to change them yourself. -Andy Warhol
When you’re younger and adults tell you “Just wait, one day time will go so quickly for you” you never believe them. You think they have their life all figured out and get to do things that you don’t even know about yet (all you know is that you can’t do it yet ’cause you’re a “kid”).
Then bam…you’re 25 thinking about all the decisions you have to make within the next couple months and all the crazy life events that have happened in the past year. I never used to believe that “time flies by” until I was done with undergrad. The last few years of my life have seemed to go by in a flash. My brain is left scrambling to grasp at all the details, in fear that I will forget some part of it or miss some detail.
A year ago today, I successfully defended my Master’s thesis and agreed to take a job at a skilled nursing facility. A week or so later I would join alumni of my college and get engaged to my love. A few weeks later I would be struggling to maintain productivity and integrity in a medical setting. I would learn so much about the field and become even more flexible than I thought was possible. I would think that I had found a stable job and finally commit to buying a new vehicle. Almost three months later I would be scrambling for another job out of the blue. Four months later I would move to an unfamiliar place in a weekend to start a job I originally turned down.
Here I now sit, a certified speech-language pathologist, working in a setting I had thought at one time I was “not good at” and that was “not for me.” And I love it. I love working with kids. I love working at multiple school districts with different dynamics and procedures and systems and communities. Sure, some days I miss medical and I wonder if I had had the opportunity to stay in the setting if I would be as happy. I wonder what my future has in store. But right now I’m glad that I had the chance to work in both medical, schools, and private practice as a new graduate. I truly respect every aspect of my profession, as each placement has its own extreme rewards and stressors. Each place will make you a stronger clinician in some way if you learn to appreciate it. Each person placed in your life will support you, motivate you to do better, challenge you, or frustrate you enough that you rethink something you’re doing. You will keep learning and growing.
Did I have any idea that all these changes would happen in one year’s time? No way. Did I have to make decisions exactly the way I did? Obviously not. But I decided to make some changes, and it worked out for me for the best.
I praise God that things turned out the way that they did for me, because I know that He wanted me right where I am at this moment. As soon as I think my eyes have been opened, He has more He wants me to see. He has changed me for the better, and with time, I know He will continue to do so.
As always, thanks for reading.